Our First Trip Away

Dave and I celebrated our two-year wedding anniversary a little over a week ago and took a little trip to Ojai for one night to celebrate. We got married in Ojai and it’s a super special place for us. This was our first trip without Dash and I had a lot of feelings about it. I was excited to have some time alone with my husband to relax, connect, get a little dressed up, and go on an actual date but I was also really nervous about being away from Dashie. 

It’s extremely helpful that my sister and my mom both live in town and Dashie has spent more time with my sister than anyone other than me and Dave so I knew he was comfortable and in good hands. But when I thought about being away my mind would start to spin. I was nervous about how Dash would sleep. I was nervous about breastfeeding. I was nervous about being away in general. I’m not used to it yet especially after spending so much time at home this past year. Even little things that in a non-pandemic time would be normal like running to the grocery store or going on a date in town with Dave have hardly happened so I don’t have the reps yet for being away, even for a short time. 

When we decided that we were going to go I promised myself that I would attempt to be as present as possible while we were gone. I didn’t want the trip to go by and afterward wish I had allowed myself to take time for myself or regret not taking that time to really connect to Dave. I tried to practice mindfulness, meditate, focused on breathing, and let myself get lost in the joy of the moment and the fun we were having. I’m so glad I made that commitment to myself because we had a blast. I also allowed myself space to feel the feelings that came up along the way and to be honest, I did tear up on our way out of town. It’s all the things. 

24 hours flew by, it was wonderful, I was so proud of how Dashie did, and honestly, I was proud of myself too. 

xoxo, Celeste